Journey of Love

Cry of the Heart

Couldn't I just get on with life? Why was my life still being affected by emotions from experiences of long ago? The questions were persistent, even though I was married with several grown children of my own.

I didn't understand what was going on inside of me - I felt disconnected from the inner parts of me. I began to realize that my identity had shattered like a block of ice.

If I could describe it for you, it was like having a family on the inside of me. Their individual opinions, ideas, and emotions at times seemed overwhelming. I knew I needed God's help, and He provided a prayer minister I could trust. But the journey took time.

One of my greatest struggles was not understanding how God could give a little girl life and then let her family destroy that life. Only the Lord Jesus could transform my misunderstanding of who I thought He was so that I could see who He truly is in character and nature. Realizing the heart of God transformed everything... He heard the cry of my heart!

"I'd be loved and cherished, for just who I am, and held and then stroked. This time my heart wouldn't get broked."

My prayer minister shared the journey with me. She knew how important it was to meet each little one in the midst of their pain. Jesus brought comfort and compassion to each part of me. We were being healed through relationship.

As I came to know these hidden parts of myself, I was coming to love my deepest nature, my God-given identity. Jesus was drawing me to acknowledge, to know, and to love my inner-most being, the very core of me. I heard my Creator speak that I was altogether perfect and lovely because He is altogether perfect and lovely, and He is able to restore all things to their original design. When I heard His heart toward me, I knew that I was lovely.

When I first began my healing journey, I struggled with questions. But God encouraged me with a promise, and I believe He wants to share it with you as well.

"I have seen and known the harshness of your childhood, and even though you have been afraid of those meant to watch over you, there is no need to fear your heavenly Father."